My Uncle Timmy

I'm missing you so much.  I'm wondering where you are now.  Why does God want us to love each other when our time together is so short?  I have a lot of theological and philosophical answers to that question, but my heart doesn't understand.  You had such an impact on my life--I didn't even realize how much until I lost you.  Selfish.

Thank you for all of the walks--around the pond, at Lake Fort Smith, at UAFS.  Thank you for laughing at and through Life in good times and in bad.  Thank you for showing me how to fight with grace.  Thank you for showing me how to serve others in love.  Thank you for being real and never caring about what others thought or how they lived.  Thank you for loving my Garon and my babies.  Thank you for the house in Mountainburg.  Thank you for watching the skies with me--stars, clouds, storms.

I miss you.

Fruit of the Spirit

I'm not sure how many days out I am now, but the physical symptoms from quitting meds seem to be gone. So, I am now becoming reacquainted with my emotions au natural.  So far so good.  I am, however, way less tolerant of just about everything.  My current mantra to self is: "Inhale gratitude, exhale love."

Tomorrow begins the 2014 season of lent.  This season I will focus on the Fruit of the Spirit.  I hope to faithfully give up screens...I have felt so undisciplined for the past few years with National Boards and now college consuming my choice in time, so I am hesitant to say I'm fully committed.  However, it's time to change.  I'm ready.  And I want to serve my God.  I want to be his clay.  So I will strive to be faithfully still, prioritize, and re-adjust the balance in my life that has been so completely out of whack.

I love you, Lord.  Please help me recenter on You in all things.